11.27.2007

exhale

I have surely posted more of these "just showing up" kind of posts more than I would have liked this month. I haven't quite made nablopomo into the writing challenge that I initially wanted to create it to be. There have been several days where I have just clicked "publish post" in the nick of time or where I haven't had enough energy to develop something more flavorful than a simple thought or recap. Oh my...today is another one of those days! We have these sometimes. These days where heads bump and strong wills tug at each other for space. I guess that is expected when you live under the same roof and hang out with one another day in and day out. I think it also has something to do with one mama and two babes being quite tired and "off". I always try to keep this in mind...the post-holiday-fun days where everyone seems to be scrounging to find a sequenced rhythm again. It feels like we can't hear the beat we normally live to...and each person is trying passionately to recover their drummer. Today was one of those days where I realize more and more the importance of honoring that need for rhythm in the lives of these children...and how sometimes it is good to say no thanks. Too much is...well...too much. I have a good perspective today. A stretched thin, worn out, tired perspective...but it is clear, and it is good. And it is always so nice when playing make believe turns the entire day up and shining. Like when your toddler refuses to listen to any words coming out of your mouth. Things like, "will you please eat your dinner?" or "please don't put the dog in the recycle bin"...but will do whatever you ask of him when he pretends to be a dog named Bubba. Make believe really is magic. I am off to continue that kind of magic with my feet propped up, a mug of hot chai cupped between my hands, some deep, mindful breaths, "Miss Potter" in my DVD player, and, perhaps if I'm lucky...an empathetic husband rubbing my feet.

7 comments:

Debbie said...

I hope you and the kids can find your rhythm again soon. The holidays are such wonderful times, yet so hard on the little ones with excitment around every corner. May "Bubba" still listen today! :)

bella said...

I hear you.
Honoring the rhythms of our children's lives, and our own, is not being "rigid" but choosing sanity. There is ebb and flow and to surrender to where we are and what we need, is magic.

Nonnie said...

i can't believe that you have been able to post everyday! and getting in sync seems to take a bit of time after these fun, hectic, all consuming holidays......a little normal routine does us all good! 3 more days to go! :)

cassie said...

just the fact that you DID post every day should give you a sense of accomplishment. remember your post about not knowing if you are enough in this world? STOP being so hard on yourself! continue to push yourself and encourage yourself, but this is life! sometimes we only have enough space to breathe!!! you have done an awesome job this month and i, for one, have enjoyed reading ALL of the posts weather lengthy or a simple caption that fell below a beautiful picture. GIVE YOURSELF A PAT ON THE BACK rather than explain what you would have rather done. too late for that...and you have so many more posts to come! YEA YOU!!!! only a few more days!

Alyson said...
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Alyson said...

oh routine...sometimes we love it...sometimes we are tired of it...i totally get it jess...we changed up our routine this morning...with a beautiful sunrise...check out my blog...i think you can relate :o)

amanda said...

ahhhh, heavenly! I haven't seen Miss Potter yet, let alone with sleeping babes, chai, and a foot-rubbing husband(!) I hope you enjoyed every minute!

And I agree, it is amazing the cooperation that can grow out of make believe. My son loves to be a cat named "mow mow" and will do any manner of task if addressed as such. magic indeed!