i choose

So, for the past few weeks it seems Journey and her relationship with sleep have steepened into the "I don't want anything to do with you" period. She has always been a finicky sleeper, with nursing being one of the only things that will help bring her to slumber or tempt her there again. But as of late, sleep has been nearly non-existent for this little one. Both chilis have been working through a cold/cough for about week now and both seem to be a bit emotionally shaky through it all.
Last night, Journey slept.
Asher didn't.
Neither did Maxwell.
I know that someday I will again taste the sweetness of a full, uninterrupted 6 hours of sleep.
But it won't be today.
Today I will try and forage my way through a sleep deprived impatient pulse and I will choose kindness.
I will choose to understand their need to paint their bodies instead of the toilet paper roll binoculars we are making.
I will choose to learn from their wonder, curiosity and simplicity.

I will choose to offer safety and keep a gentle voice when I discover my four year old descending down from the tippy top tiny branch of a not-so-sturdy tree...with nothing on but a t-shirt and shoes. I will remember that indeed I was the one who encouraged him to go outside and do some birdwatching.

Today, I will choose to do my best to see the world through their eyes,

to hear it through their ears,

to feel it with their touch,

to taste and know and explore it with my whole self.


latisha said...

so this is how life is. i keep imagining i will wake up to automatic peace and restfulness one day. im beginning to realize its already here among all our chaos, i just have to recognize it. great post. i love the new layout! the colors are so fall and warm.

Debbie said...

I hope that your day of choosing how to be will be successful! :) May a good night sleep find all of you...soon!

Anonymous said...

You are always doing your best sweet Jess. We all are.

Nonnie said...

i love it jess.....and i'm sure your sweet ones are happy of the choices you made! :)

Stacy (mama-om) said...

I love the "choosing to paint their bodies..." !

Just caught up on your most recent posts -- they're lovely and inspiring in their kindness.