9.10.2008

what time is it?

Have I mentioned that waking up before my children means that I must pull myself from bed around 5 am? It does mean that. It also means I have a bit of convincing to do with Journey when I try and leave her side. Or rather, when the milk supplier leaves her side. But I did it. Today I pried myself away and comforted my longing to sleep with little reminders of how great it might feel to get a few things accomplished before anyone stirs. And it does. It feels great. There is something so meditative about being awake in a quiet home that is not normally so quiet, before anyone else is awake with their own wants and needs...just sitting with myself. Mmmmm....it has been calming. What a steady way to begin a day. Hopefully I can do it again sometime! It seems the next little while will require making some effort on my part to incorporate some new rhythm into our days. Nothing too structured or super intentional...just a little more guiding on my part for our mornings and transitions. We are turning new leaves, doing a lot of experimenting with learning and with joining different groups of people to see where we best thrive and grow. Change is amongst us and it comes with excitement and energy and also the thoughts of how in the world is this all going to work? Time will help us along and so will our efforts and I know the natural melody of change will guide us into where we need to be within the walls of this home and within the core of learning. I can feel the shift even in the season. Something is moving, changing, expanding...while others are shortening. Light is shifting and ideas of outdoor play don't sound as crazy. I'm eager for it all. I think we're all ready for it because I've been hearing this squabbling around our home for weeks now. What is with the squabbling? And the pulling of each other's hair? And the pinching? Seriously. But there was none of that this morning at 5am. And that was really nice.

8 comments:

Debbie said...

I love those mornings where I can get my mind set before everyone is awake. For most of the summer I was getting up at 5:15 to go for a run. I was SO much happier and more relaxed on those days. Glad you took a little time for yourself. Hope you do it again soon! :)

Jme said...

Yes...I can actually hear the silence in your "voice:. :) Glad you had some time just for you this morning.
Thanks again for our adventure yesterday to see the dinosaurs...that was really cool! :)

latisha said...

i want to be you when i grow up.

Karen Maezen Miller said...

Time is where you find it. Inspiring.

Nonnie said...

i so wish i was more of a morning person....i love it when i get up early....it's a new day...all is quiet and fresh....and i remember days like that when you all were babies too!
guess we just have to make it happen!

Sara said...

so glad you got some quiet time, and it does energize you in such a great way...the outdoors have been calling our name as well...hope you find more mornings like this...

Downing Family said...

well I will never complain again when Larz gets up before 7. You are a trooper. It was lovely to be able to do yoga next to you and witness an amazing lightening storm. What a night huh?

Annette said...

Even on my day's off and in the summer time when I didnt have to drive my son to school I still got up early to grind my coffee and read the paper or just sit and listen to the silence of the day, just the little birds chatting to each other. I HAVE to have "me time" always have. and I agree with Jamie I too can hear the silence in your writting, almost sounds like a wisper.

Hug's
Annette