5.14.2008

we need love

Death whispers lightly in my ear as I look on at the lingering life inside this sweet little soul of a pup. We've been told that Forrest has Parvo. He is extremely sick, depressed and overall not doing well at all. We've taken him to two different vets, with the first being an extremely lonely and hurtful experience in the midst of needed tenderness. We rested in the comfort and love of the second one, knowing that they would be doing everything they could to help him survive. He is home with us after getting a dose of subcutaneous fluids, some medication and vitamins. We will be going in again tomorrow, if all goes well tonight, to receive the same treatment once again. I've been doing all that I can to help him through this and I feel completely helpless. We are giving him fluids every so often through a syringe and cleaning up after his accidents. I tried giving him his oral medication but it came right back out. I am exhausted from emotion and mental exercise. I wish I could do more and I can't. Please keep sweet Forrest in your hearts. I keep telling him that there are so many more things to see and that we won't get mad at him for taking our underwear in the yard or chewing our toys apart...if he could just pull through. I am making promises to take him to the river and romp in the water. But, I also let him know that if he needs to go...he can. We understand and we love him for how he has made our hearts grow. He teaches me now in these hours, of how important it is to love those in my heart as if they are dying. Because really, if we think about it clearly, we are...right alongside all of the living.
I am holding great hope in my heart for many more days with Forrest and his exuberance.

21 comments:

Jme said...

Oh Jess...I've been at this place before and it hurts so much. I'm sitting at my desk crying for you and for Forrest who is such a sweet little soul. I know things don't look good. I just want you to know he hasn't been out of my thoughts for the last few days and I really am praying for his strength to pull him through. Just know that you are doing all you can...
Love you ~

Brittni said...

Poor little pup. I can't imagine how hard this is on you. I too am giving forrest the prayers for strength to get through this no matter what the outcome. I love you Jess and am so sorry that your little family has to go through this right now. He is a sweet sweet little doggie who has made your chillies happy.

Debbie said...

I have been thinking about you and your furry child since I heard. I have been there before, years ago. I am sending prayers to all of you. You are a strong mama and doing everything you can for your whole family. Call if you need anything....

Nonnie said...

sitting here with tears dropping into my lap.....how often i have been in this place.......something so hard with these little ones....i have had him in my heart, jess...asking for his survival...but as you say, we also have to be willing to let go....but i too, would like a chance to know him better and see his little fans have a chance to romp with him again.
ly

cassie said...

oh poor puppy...it seems like he jsut came into your life. i had never heard of this disease until one of the customers at the bead store had just lost his puppy to it. it is so sad and heartbreaking. i hope you recieve the strength to get through whatever outcome is best for that little guy. thoughts and love being sent his way...along with the rest of your sweet family.

Sara said...

Dear sweet Jess~ I am so sorry that you have to go through this...I know that you are a strong woman and mama...you will know when the time is right if it has to come to that, but praying that he will make a full recovery with extra love around him. Hugs!!!

S. Barnes said...

Jess,

Soooo sorry my friend. I, too, sit here with tears. That's so hard. I'll pray to God for you, your family, and sweet little Forrest. Give him a little love for me.

S. Barnes said...

p.s. not that she could help any more than you are already receiving, but just FYI ... Katy Green (my college roommate who married Tad Green) is a vet in Phoenix ... I don't know ... in case you have any questions....

Elizabeth said...

Poor sweet Forrest. I am thinking of him and of your family and hoping for some healing and peace for you all.

Mommy to a Tater Tot said...

We will keep him adn you guys in our prayers. Hoping he will pull through. It has to be hard to watch, hang in there. Let us know if there is anything we can do.

Kirsten Michelle said...

oh jessamyn, i wish i knew what to say...
holding you and yours and that adorable little pup so close in thought and prayer.
xo

Annette said...

my dog had pravo and is still here, this has been 10 years ago, ice cubes made of beef bullion is great!! my cousin is a vet and thats what she told me, too let her lick the ice cubes, you want them to maintain fluid's and beef bullion is very salty, but god can help this puppy. he can heal any thing!! best wishes
Annette

daisies said...

oh honey ... i am so sorry ... will send all kinds of love and care your way!

Mandy said...

jess~ I am so sorry. I can feel the hurt you are going thru. I pray that he will pull through.
Sending you and your family love and many prayers
mandy

Karen said...

I'm tucking Forrest into the folds of my heart. Good dog.

Simplicity Wins said...

Oh jess, I am so sorry to hear about poor little Forrest. That is so sad, he is so young. I will keep this little pup in my prayers and hope he recovers so he can have many more years growing, loving, playing and learning from you and your children. I love you sweet friend.

velvet brick said...

jess...here's prayers for Forrest and your family... I hope things are a bit better...
VB

Kacy said...

Jess~ I am so sorry to hear about your little furry guy. I am sure he is grateful to have the time that he has with your cute family and the love he gets from the kids. We will keep him (and you!)in our hearts and hope for the best. What a growing moment for many hearts and minds...

Mandy said...

I was just checking in to see how the little pup is doing.
mandy

Alyson said...

Jess, I am so sorry to hear about little Forrest. He is such a beautiful part of your family. Hope things go okay. Hope to see you soon!

mb. said...

streaming lights of healing and vibrancy to Forrest. lovin' your pup along side you, what a sweet soul.

peace and strength,
mb