So, no matter how much effort I put towards trying to organize my day, I seem to be eternally dis-organized. My intentions rotate around trying to carve out time...time to play and learn, time to write and experiment, time to clean and organize, time to read and research, time to take care of the "to-do's", etc, etc. Usually it all just melts into one giant piece of time...the time it takes to live with and care for two babes. I haven't been here writing because it just hasn't worked out for me. Our days seem to start and end and all of the in-between gets consumed with the basics and the research I am doing and the efforts I am making to do the things I know I need to do. I think I have also somewhat been thinking of coming here as a sort of obligation. And that only serves to drive me further away, like the way someone demanding something of me only makes me want to do the exact opposite. Although, I know that when I am actually writing and dreaming and expressing...I feel so much better about life in general. So, that simple statement should be enough. I need to figure out some kind of time management skill that works for me.
Other than that...we are just doing a whole lot of living. For various reasons, I have felt a generous amount of freedom in the past few weeks. I have met with girlfriends for dinner and drinks. I have been to coffee shops and have been reading books (actually finishing them!). I have been having some of the most wonderful moments with my friends and their children. Our days have been full, and we have been well. I take out my camera every now and then when it feels right and when I can give it sufficient attention. I long to do it more...but I know that will fall into place soon enough. There seems to be a lot going on with my family, with friends, with the world...that, for an empath, seems to require extensive "filling up" and sending light and love on its beautiful way. My mind is getting a little crowded...but it all comes into perspective sooner or later.
sooner rather than later with the help of this simple soul
Hoping to be swinging into this space much more often!