1.21.2008

just a swingin'

So, no matter how much effort I put towards trying to organize my day, I seem to be eternally dis-organized. My intentions rotate around trying to carve out time...time to play and learn, time to write and experiment, time to clean and organize, time to read and research, time to take care of the "to-do's", etc, etc. Usually it all just melts into one giant piece of time...the time it takes to live with and care for two babes. I haven't been here writing because it just hasn't worked out for me. Our days seem to start and end and all of the in-between gets consumed with the basics and the research I am doing and the efforts I am making to do the things I know I need to do. I think I have also somewhat been thinking of coming here as a sort of obligation. And that only serves to drive me further away, like the way someone demanding something of me only makes me want to do the exact opposite. Although, I know that when I am actually writing and dreaming and expressing...I feel so much better about life in general. So, that simple statement should be enough. I need to figure out some kind of time management skill that works for me.
Other than that...we are just doing a whole lot of living. For various reasons, I have felt a generous amount of freedom in the past few weeks. I have met with girlfriends for dinner and drinks. I have been to coffee shops and have been reading books (actually finishing them!). I have been having some of the most wonderful moments with my friends and their children. Our days have been full, and we have been well. I take out my camera every now and then when it feels right and when I can give it sufficient attention. I long to do it more...but I know that will fall into place soon enough. There seems to be a lot going on with my family, with friends, with the world...that, for an empath, seems to require extensive "filling up" and sending light and love on its beautiful way. My mind is getting a little crowded...but it all comes into perspective sooner or later.

sooner rather than later with the help of this simple soul

Hoping to be swinging into this space much more often!

11 comments:

cassie said...

so glad to read some of your writing again! and i love the pictures of your little precious babe. she is just amazing!

Cory said...

Yes she is a beautiful soul, as is her mama! Glad to see you back in action too. Love you Jess

Nonnie said...

yes.....the cares and concerns of life do have a tendency to fill our days....we certainly are blessed to have them filled with wonderful moments though.....the beautiful day yesterday for jamie and mattie (not the sickness) and who can forget our lovely "party" requested by asher and loved by all!

Auntie Vee said...

I was begining to think you had jumped off the face of the earth?? I asked GG yesterday if he knew? And he didn't know either! I'm glad to know you have been enjoying yourself with family, friends and babes.

Mandy said...

Jess~ I just want to squeeze her!! She has the sweetest little soul. Cant help but fall in love with her.

Simplicity Wins said...

Hi Jess,
I miss you girl! Those pictures of Journey are so beautiful. I love the happy look in her eyes. Cory said it perfectly "Yes, she is a beautiful soul, as is her mama!" Lova you and miss you guys!

rebecca said...

i'm glad you are out there living your life with your beautiful souls, beautiful you!

Melissa Stephenson said...

I know I am busy enough caring for one, much less two.... =) Sounds like you are doing a good job balancing all the balls in the air.

Debbie said...

So glad to see you back here! I love the pictures of Journey. How can everyone just not adore her! I am glad you are finding the time to fill your life with loved ones and things you enjoy doing.

Jme said...

Good photos Jess :) I see the one of Journey's little face and it cracks me up remembering what a little comedian she was the last time we watched her. She seriously thinks she's SO funny! (and she is!). She's going to be a total ham!! :)
Love you!

daisies said...

beautiful photos beautiful you ... i owe you some emails and hope to find time this weekend ~ i understand this post a whole lot ... thinking of you, much love, xox